Panic Attack

on Monday, October 21, 2013

Had another episode of Panic Attack on the Saturday 12th Nov. It's at home. And it lasted till 3am in the morning! Its so close to suicidal. I can't forgive myself for that. :( 

I hate to say this. But I can't seem to control myself when it attacks. And it only happen when I'm depressed. When am I feeling this way? I hope I won't go to the stage of depression.

With love,
Syed Ridwan

P/S: I miss you. 

Us

on Sunday, October 13, 2013










I don't know where to spam all these photos of you and us! There's more in my phone. Don't want to delete it. Cause I really love you deeply. Truly I am. 

Muacks. 

P/S: I love you. I still do. 

I'll wait for you

on Sunday, October 6, 2013

I guess things gonna change from now onwards. I've been wanting for it not to change. I love how things were in between us. 

Can you please tell me that it wasn't true? Can you please come back to me and say that you were just testing myself? Can you just come back to me and say those three words that I've been wanting to hear all these while? Can you come back to me sayang? I can't seem to move on. I'm still thinking of you do you knw that? Every single day, every single hour, every single minute, every single second. Why don't you wanna start things again afresh? I really love you sayang. I really do. Why must you do this to me? :'(

Where have I gone wrong? What have I done that I have to go through all these? I'm sorry if I'm at wrong. Every day I will shed tears thinking of our sweet memories that we have gone through together. That night at Karaoke Session, JB trip and our KL Trip. Our conversations, pictures, I still keep it. When I miss you badly, only those things can keep me company and can let me lepaskan rindu. Baby, please come back to me. Please. 

But don't you force yourself if your love towards me is gonna be because you just wanna see me happy. Its okay. Don't have to think about me. If us breaking up, makes you happier, then be it. I want you to be happy. That's all. 

With love,
Syed Ridwan

P/S: I'll wait for you. 

Job

on Thursday, October 3, 2013

Job Y U no come?!
Ergh. Stress giler aku dibuatnya. 

Jobhunt now! 

With love,
Syed Ridwan