Goodbye Blog! :)

New blog! :)

www.butterfingers-wan.blogspot.com

With love,
Syed Ridwan

For you, I supposed

Dear you, 

I know. Life sucks ain't it. I'm slowly getting over you. I mean not in a bad way. But in a good way. I dont want you to feel rimas with me trying to be around you, or pestering you or whatsoever because I know how it feels. Well, we're soulmates remember? I mean we're both Taurus, We share the same characteristics. So yeah, I dont like it neither. 

I'm gonna be happy for you, bachen. Be it you're moving on or not, I'll still be happy for you. If you're waiting for me to move on, let me tell you, I've moved on. Not that I found anyone special, no, its just that I've stopped trying to love you more as a friend. I just treat you as a friend. And not more than that. Hope you understand what I mean. :)

Just to let you know since I dont want to bother you on whatsapp, I got job offers. 2 job offers to be exact. One from ExxonMobil and the other one from SGS Testing. Both is not shift i supposed. Actually, I'd prefer shift job. Haha. I want to experience how working at night is. I'm waiting for ExxonMobil salary package proposal before I decide which company to work. 

I've asked opinions from my brother since he worked under this line before, and he knows that ExxonMobil is a better choice as SGS Testing is quite rabak. Rabak in what sense, I'm not sure. Haha. Anyway, I told them to email bu Friday 20th Dec latest as SGS Testing need reply from me soon. 

Anyway, enough about me. Hope you'll find your someone. Hehe. Dont say that you can't ve bothered. I know you're lonely out there. Go find someone. Be it a men or a lady, I just want you to be happy. Hope he/she treat you well. I want you to be happy okay? Don't be that lonely guy. Not good for yourself. :) 

Take care. Speak to me if you need someone to talk to (I know it wont happen) and hope to bump into you one day! :) 

Cheers. 

PS: I'm happy for you :)

Stepping Back

Wah. Its really tough to step back and trying to forget someone who you used to love so much, eh? Oh well. I know I can do this! Come on Ridwan. Give him a chance to love someone else. Let him try to give love to other people okay? You've had that chance and you've just got to blow it away. Stupid you Ridwan. 

Anyway. Knowing that you're contacting someone, somehow I'm crushed. I don't know to be happy or not. Definitely I'm sad inside. But if you're happy with someone else, I'm happy for you. Really. Like I've said, don't because of me you don't want to fall in love again. I'm sorry if I give you bad experience but not all guys are the same right? There's better ones out there. You won't know till you try it out. :)

I want to be friends with you again. Like just friends and nothing more. I know its tough. Like my friend say, 

True isn't it? Hmm. I wonder if you agree to it to. Hmmm. Anyway, since you're not going to talk to me in a daily basis, I just wanna wish you all the best in the future, pursue your studies and work and congrats on your driving licence. Wish you all the best in life. Do invite me to your wedding alright?

Quote from a telemovie that I watched:

"Can I love you even though I know you don't love me back?" 

P/S: I love you, still

I don't know

I see no positive response from you my bachen. Response as in you starting to talk to me as per normal, and stuff. You don't know how worried I am when I know that you got fever. I wanted to ask how you feeling and stuff but you will always say "Don't worry la about me." What nonsense?! Tsk! Grrr.

Hais. I miss you bachen. I really do. Macam nak turun Jurong to find you gitu but I know you won't like me doing that. Well. To you I'm annoying kan? Pestering you for your love? Nevermind la. I know there's no more spot for me in your heart anymore. To you, I'm petty and I can't be trusted also. So yeah. I know where I stand la ya. I'm only your friend whenever you're lonely. 

I sometimes tear whenever I think about you. Yes. I gembeng. You can say whatever you want. But thats the only way I show how truthful I amtowards you. I never cry for anyone else before. You're the first. How I wish I can turn back time. Turn back not to the incident in KL but to the day when we exchange numbers. Because I seriously wanted to start things back. But you seem not interested. Hais. 

Nevermind. I'll wait. I'll wait for my true love. Whoever will it be. Be it someone who used to fuck me or someone who treat me like a speck of dust, I dont care. Secretly, I wish it's you my true love is. But i know it will never happen because it seems like you're not interested anymore. 

Whenever I try to be the initiator, your replies will be a one-worder. How can i not assume? Maybe to you, you dont want to give false hope to me. Nevermind I understand. I'll just keep quiet for now. When you feel lonely, you can talk to me. I'll try to reply you. Try. Hmm. But you know i'll reply no matter what. 

Well, like my friends always said, whats in you that makes me wanna stay? I don't know myself. We dont even know each other well but it seems like I'm so much attracted to you. 

Nevermind lah Khai. I know I'm just not good enough to be yours again. I never will right? Haha. No worries. I'll fix this wound in my heart myself. 

Well. Time to rest this mind and body for they've been thinking too much about you lately. 

Good Night. 

With love,

Syed Ridwan

P/S: I Love You

I Miss You

Its been a month plus since we broke off. Haha! I don't know. Still can't get this feeling off me. I hope you feel the same way too. You've made a huge impact in my life. I still love you do you know that? I can't love others like how I love you. Well other than my family and Allah of course.

Khai, I want you to know, that I'm here for you. No matter what okay? I'll wait for you and hopefully that your love towards me will be the same. I hope. If it doesn't, do show me some signs, cause that is the only way for me to move on really. My love towards you doesn't move a little. Its growing stronger actually for I've no reason why.

I'll be here... Waiting for you to say "Let's start everything back." I miss you Khai. I really do. I just want to text you like how I normally do, but I'm afraid that I'm just clapping with one hand. It takes two to clap right? :)

If we were to get back together, I promise, I will be a better person. That person who'll be there for you when you need me and vice-versa. I'll definitely understand your busy schedule as how you understand mine. And my trust towards you have never grow thin. I trust you a lot and I definitely love you..

Oh. Do text me after you've read this post okay? I'll be waiting. 

With love,
Syed Ridwan

P/S: I love you Khai. I really do.

Panic Attack

Had another episode of Panic Attack on the Saturday 12th Nov. It's at home. And it lasted till 3am in the morning! Its so close to suicidal. I can't forgive myself for that. :( 

I hate to say this. But I can't seem to control myself when it attacks. And it only happen when I'm depressed. When am I feeling this way? I hope I won't go to the stage of depression.

With love,

Syed Ridwan

P/S: I miss you. 

Us

I don't know where to spam all these photos of you and us! There's more in my phone. Don't want to delete it. Cause I really love you deeply. Truly I am. 

Muacks. 

P/S: I love you. I still do. 

I'll wait for you

I guess things gonna change from now onwards. I've been wanting for it not to change. I love how things were in between us. 

Can you please tell me that it wasn't true? Can you please come back to me and say that you were just testing myself? Can you just come back to me and say those three words that I've been wanting to hear all these while? Can you come back to me sayang? I can't seem to move on. I'm still thinking of you do you knw that? Every single day, every single hour, every single minute, every single second. Why don't you wanna start things again afresh? I really love you sayang. I really do. Why must you do this to me? :'(

Where have I gone wrong? What have I done that I have to go through all these? I'm sorry if I'm at wrong. Every day I will shed tears thinking of our sweet memories that we have gone through together. That night at Karaoke Session, JB trip and our KL Trip. Our conversations, pictures, I still keep it. When I miss you badly, only those things can keep me company and can let me lepaskan rindu. Baby, please come back to me. Please. 

But don't you force yourself if your love towards me is gonna be because you just wanna see me happy. Its okay. Don't have to think about me. If us breaking up, makes you happier, then be it. I want you to be happy. That's all. 

With love,

Syed Ridwan

P/S: I'll wait for you. 

Job

Job Y U no come?!

Ergh. Stress giler aku dibuatnya. 

Jobhunt now! 

With love,

Syed Ridwan

Thanks for the Memories

30th September 2013.

Where it all ends. Our status as boyfriends. I sorry because I'm not ready for you. I didn't know what to do or expect from a relationship like this. I expected a lot. I know my flaws. Thanks to Amirul for getting it from you. Thank you for being honest. 

I've made a vow. You're my first and my last. And I'm not going to break that. I'm not going to ruin my life further. I guess one is enough. I got hurt in a straight relationship. I also got hurt in a gay relationship. I guess I'm not going to try anymore. Be single forever is alright I guess. 

Khai. 

Thanks for being there for me for the past 3 months we got to know each other. From friends to being attached. I appreciate that. Just want to let you know, I really love you no matter what. As a friend. Thanks for the memories we've made thus far. I respect you as a friend. 

But whatever happens in the future, happens in the future. Do invite me for your wedding one day alright? 

Now. I've got to move on with life. I've got to secure myself a job. Thinking of signing on Civil Defence as paramedic if finding job outside fails. I'm gonna slowly drop my music commitments as I think its not going anywhere. And soon, since I got no commitments, i think signing on, and a 14 months training in the camp will be a greatest distraction for me. I don't want to think so much. I think that's the best for me. 

Thank you once again. 

And you know, as always how i close my blogpost with "I love you." But for now will be different. Need to constantly remind myself that you're just a friend. A BFF like what you want me to be. 

With love,

Syed Ridwan

P/S: I'm thinking of you BFF. Just can't get you out of my head :') 

1 more day!

Finally, the day I've been waiting for and have been looking forward to is here. One more day and off I go. Goodbye Singapore. 

Finally, I'm gonna enjoy a holiday with someone I loved. First time experiencing this. Gonna be exciting and fun. I hope you will enjoy the trip with me as your company and vice versa. 

With all my heart, I love you sweetheart. ❤️

With love,

Syed Ridwan

P/S: I love you. 

Countdown

Its not that I ditch you my dear blog. There's been alot of things happened at the same time and I just can't bear to vomit everything out here at one go. And I can't seem to do it also. 

Anyway, 7 more days Ridwan. Sabar. 

With love,

Syed Ridwan

P/S: I love you

Appreciation

No one. Let me emphasize again. No one really understand what my heart feels and my brain is thinking, EXCEPT, Allah s.w.t. Only He knows what I'm going through and I believe what I've gone through so far has been carved out by him. 

Insya Allah, when the time is right, I will change. Insya Allah, i will definitely change. Don't force me. Don't hurry me. Let time take it's toll. 

And to you, thanks for everything. I appreciate it so much from day one we know each other and up till now. Thank you. 

With love,

Syed Ridwan 

P/S: I love you

Thinking of You

I thought of you today but that’s nothing new;

I thought about you yesterday and the day before that too.

For every day good or bad you'll always be in my head;

I hope you've understood everything I’ve said.

This isn't just a joke or a silly lie;

I’d never do anything to make you wanna cry.

I’m sorry if I do something to make you really mad;

It only comes back and makes me really sad.

I really do love you and everything you are: 

I hope this relationship gets really far.

I’ll never get you out I simply don't know how;

In fact I’m thinking of you right about now. 

You’re everything I need and everything to me;

You know exactly who you are and what you want to be.

You always make me smile just by being there;

I hope you know how much I really do care.

Every time I think of you my stomach seems to twist;

This is why I love you, I’ve made a huge list.

The list goes on forever and never will it end;

Neither will our relationship you'll always be my friend.

Not just a simple friend but a special friend at that;

I want to spend my whole life with you.

With love,

Syed Ridwan

P/S: I love you

Untuk-Mu

Ya Allah, 

Selamatkan lah hamba-Mu ini. Jauhkan diri hamba-Mu ini dari segala penyankit yang tidak di ingini, ya Allah. Tidak sanggup lagi untuk diriku ini melawan sakit dan derita penyakit ini, ya Allah. Aku merayu padamu. Sembuhlah penyakit yang tidak aku ketahui ini. 

Amin. Ya rabil-al-amin. 

My Only Love

Just to say I love you

Never seems enough

I've said it so many times

I am afraid you won't understand

What I really mean when I say it

How can so much feeling

So much adoration possibly fit into

Those three little words

But until I find some other way

Of saying what I feel,

Then,

"I Love You" will have to do

So no matter how many times I say it

Never take it lightly,

For you are my life

And my only love

I love you now..

More than ever before

With Love,

Syed Ridwan

P/S: I love you

Apologies

To whom it may concern,

I know I'm a jerk. I didn't mean to jeopardize your privacy. Never in my mind that I will do such a thing. But I got carried away. I'm sorry. I seriously didn't mean to. My stupidity and ego is at it's best last night. 

I know you still angry at me. You have yet to accept my apologies. Never mind. You're still angry. I will step back. I know I'm at fault and I guess I should punish myself. I know you might think it's immature but I need to teach myself a lesson. 

I'm sorry once again. Hope you accept my apology.

Have a great day at work later on.

I still love you. And I hope you do too. 

& I'm not surprised if you step back too.

With love, 

Syed Ridwan

P/S: I love you. & I'm sorry. 

Rain

It has been raining and drizzling for the past few days. I don't know if its a good or bad.

Good probably the temperature in Singapore drops as a whole. I'm loving the cold weather in Singapore now. Just that be extra careful don't catch a flu okay guys? 

Bad probably because its difficult to travel around. You'll afraid of getting wet and bring umbrella around is just a hassle. 

Contradicting much? Yeah. I know. 

And you my monkey! Don't complain about your fitness. I don't want to know. Cause to me, as long as you're healthy and standing strong, I'm glad that you're there for me. :)

"Remember even though the outside world might be raining, if you keep on smiling the sun will soon show its face and smile back at you." - Anna Lee

With love,

Syed Ridwan

P/S: I love you

Emotional

What happen with my emotions? They just like to play with me own self. I suddenly teared thinking about you. Anyway, aiya, you got no time reading this also la. You busy with your own things. I bet you forget my link already also. I'm trying to control myself today. You just have to make it worse right? Nevermind me. 

Fuck. Ridwan. Stop being so emotional lah. You're not feeling well. Just go sleep already. You have to wake up early to collect your IC. Why be sad when tomorrow is going to be one of your happiest day in your life. 

I'm sorry if any of my words are harsh and if you're affected by it, I'm truly sorry. Just that, only on my blog I can express everything and vent my anger at. I don't know why I'm angry. I shouldn't have. Right? 

And I'm tearing again now. No. Not your fault really. I don't blame you. It's just me. Just me. 

With love, 

Syed Ridwan

P/S: I love you, will always be.

Falling Ill

Been sniffing badly from runny nose. Hope it won't get any more worse. Please recover dear body. Please be normal. Not some weirdo with frequent headaches and occasionally fever. But no worries. I will recover. Definitely will. Just a matter of time. 

Date as of today 5th September. ORD-ing soon. I really can't wait to kiss my pink IC tomorrow. Although my exact ORD date is Saturday. Hahah! I miss my retarded face on that pink card. 

Sleepy. Yawn. Guess I will sleep early tonight. But i think its too early to say. Haha! Just being random anyway. 

With love,

Syed Ridwan

P/S: I love you.

Upcoming Events

Major concerts are finally over for the month of August. Now, let's see what am I going to expect for the next couple of months.

• 12 September 2013 - Viola Grade 5 Exams
• 17 September 2013 - Final Theory Test
• 28 September 2013 - Kuala Lumpur / Genting Trip with my beloved Monkey!
• 05 October 2013 - Mandarin Hotel Wedding Quartet with My Symphonic Hall
• 19 October 2013 - Braddell Heights Chamber Festival
• 22 December 2013 - Braddell Heights Concert Season

I guess that's about it. I need to get a job. I am unsure if my current company is going to secure me with another opening. I hope they really do. Seems to me like a nice place to work at. I am quite unprepared for my exams and tests. I hope I can ace them.

Headache wise. Its slowly going away. I think I'm having low blood pressure whenever I'm having it. Somehow I can feel it. Because after taking sweets whenever I got headache, it got better. Probably due to that. It's gonna be 2 weeks tomorrow. 

Monkey. Hehe. Its nice meeting you today. Really really glad that you spend your time with me even though you have to rush and squeeze in the train knowing its peak hours. I know you hated that so much. And now, you know my blog and my twitter. Boooo! Never let me read your timeline and yes. I willingly gave my blog link to you as I really had nothing to hide. All for your reading leisure. I'm totally fine with it. Just want you to know that I'm being honest with you and all I typed here is all for you. But please don't bother reading about my old old old old blog posts. I lazy to reread and delete one by one. Super childish and immature. Haha! 

With love,

Syed Ridwan

P/S: I love you

Me

Question: Where did you grow up?

I was born in Singapore - K.K. Hospital to be exact.

I was brought back home to a house in Toa Payoh. There, I started my pre-school at this community center. My uniform was red & white. I can't remember if its under PAP. I am not pretty sure. I have a picture of it though.

There! That was me back then (the one on the right). I love going to school and never skip classes if possible. I love break time where my teacher will make hot Milo for all of us! I am good at playing hula-hoop too back then. But not now.

Started Primary school at Westlake Primary School situated opposite where I lived in Toa Payoh. There I made friends whom I don't remember who now because I only spent one year there.

We then shifted to Yishun. Shifted school as well to Naval Base Primary School. This is were my primary school moments really were. I made a lot of friends there and where I unleashed my interest in arts! I took part in malay dances, twist (talentime) - and won first, and many more.

Continued my studies in Yishun Seconday School. Where I've made true friends and up till now we are still close. They're like sisters to me. I personally I love them as friends. There, I became more studious as compared to life in primary school. I'm more playful back then. I picked up some sports that I liked, i.e. Touch Rugby, Floorball, Softball, etc. And there my liking for arts and music blooms even more. Joined choir and drama club and it really pays off. I learnt a lot from there.

Shifted to Chinatown. Gahh! What a nice place to live in. Centralized and I can go to town at the shortest time possible. I miss living there. Started my diploma in Nanyang Polytechnic. Here, I've made a big impact in my life. Learning an Instrument -  Violin. And from there my love for music grew and up till now I'm a budding musician.

With love,
Syed Ridwan

P/S: I love you

Marathon

Army Half Marathon or AHM is so fun! I managed to complete it for the first time and it feels so great. Thank god I managed to complete it without injuries and the freebies are really worth it. Got myself a medal and finisher t-shirt! Accomplished. I'm officially a marathon runner. Can't wait to run more marathons! 

Sorry to hear you fell. But you complete it even though you're nervous at the start right? Now I know what it feels like to run marathon. It's fun! Really! Thanks to you. I'm inspired to run more marathons.

With love,

Syed Ridwan

P/S: I love you. 

Sweet Sixteen

Qn: Write a letter to yourself aged sixteen.

This is an interesting topic. Hahah! Let's get this going! 

Date: 04 May 2007

Dear Ridwan,

You're so in love. You love her so much that you wouldn't want to lose her. You even stayed late in school to wait for her to finish her remedial lessons. You lied to your parents, who know nothing about your relationship, saying that you're having remedial of your own when you're not. You waited at the canteen with your cliques celebrating your advanced birthday and you're so delighted! However she's not there. She's not there not because of the remedial lessons but she went home straight after that without telling you. Oh! She did. Texting. So sincere. 

Come on Ridwan. Don't be naive and blinded by love. You said Its okay. You kept quiet and left for home and after that no more news or text from her.

Date: 05 May 2007

You sent her a morning message. But she replied hours later. And she said she just woke up. Okay. You accepted her lame reason. Who wakes up at 4pm in the evening given the fact that she's a student and doesn't have to work night shift or something? 

You waited and waited hoping she will keep the conversation going. You typed a question and ponder on whether to send the message or not. Come on use your brain. She's not in her how-you-used-to-know-her-a-year-ago self. She's trying to avoid you. Can't you tell? Wake up Ridwan! Wake up from your dreams! Face the harsh reality.

Date: 06 May 2007

She wished you happy birthday. You smiled. But not the first thing in the morning. Neither when the clock struck 12am last night. But in the afternoon. How you wish she's the first to wish. But she didn't. And you still smiled. Thinking about the relationship and how you thought she still loves you. And that was the first and her last text for that day. Open your eyes Ridwan. Use your brain to think. She's bound to leave you. And she did. 

With love, 

Syed Ridwan

P/S: I miss you

Remembered

Qn: Who from your past do you wish were still around?

My late father. How wish he's still around. Even though, I'm given away, I know you as a father, you won't forget me unlike what mother has done. I don't know you personally but I think I know your heart. I know how dearly you love your kids and giving me away wasn't your choice. Its your wife's. 

Dad. I love you. 

With love,

Syed Ridwan

P/S: I miss you

My Monkey

Qn: Write about someone you love.

Gosh. What a random question! I'm starting to like this question generator.

Lemme see where can I start.

Let's name this person Monkey. Peace! Hahaha! Don't angry if you were to read this! 

#1.Hardworking. Tooo hardworking. A workaholic I can say. My monkey loves to be at work. :) its a good thing though. I think. 

#2. My monkey loves to annoy me. Hahah! Although I got annoyed by it teasing me, I still love my monkey.

#3. I find it cute when my monkey starts to panic! All the vulgarities can just splurred out! Hahaha! 

#4. When my monkey start to get all jealous if I'm with another party. Hahah! My monkey will say that it's jealous. I like the way it being frank with me. 

#5. My monkey will always make me smile when I'm down! I thank you for that my dearest monkey. 

I love you monkey. 

With love, 

Syed Ridwan 

P/S: I love you.

Body

Qn: What would you change about your body? 

1. Height. I find that I'm too short. To find a partner is never easy when you're at this height. 165cm! Too short la. Need to be 170cm and above. Don't you think so? Tall and charming!

2. Teeth orientation. I find that my teeth alignment is too jagged. But that can be easily fixed by using braces. Well, what I meant is that, why bother braces if it is already straight right? 

3. Complexion. I guess I'm too tanned. Whitening product please!! 

4. Chest. I realise that my chest is too flat! I need to build it up! Need to pump it up. That's why I'm heading to the gym now! 

5. Abs. Hahaha! Many guys would love to change this to those rock-hard 8 pecs and good-looking tummy as instant as possible. I'm slowly seeing mine. I guess that's a good sign. Been working on it. 

6. Dry skin. To those who know me long enough, they would know about my dry skin. As it is quite rough I shall say. Need to apply some mosturizer. But I don't religiously do it. How like that? 

7. My brain. I think that I'm too stupid la. I need a brainiac brain to go to JC and easily go University. I want to go University and be a degree holder. But yeah, my brain just can't take it and make me stop a diploma level instead.

8. My eyes. How I wish I got perfect eyesight. Its so good to have good eyesight and no need all those complications of going to the opticians and get new spectacles when it's broken or new contact lenses when its making your eyes uncomfortable. 

9. My _________. Hahahah! Slowly figure out! 

And to you, this is not the first time you did this to me. I know your priorities and I know you keeping your reputations. But please don't do that to me again.. I beg you..

With love,

Syed Ridwan

P/S: I love you

Absence makes the heart grow fonder

Have you heard of this saying? 

"Absence makes the heart grow fonder". 

If you don't, it simply means: The lack of something increases the desire for it.

I don't know. I find that we are getting more and more distant. I understand you commitments. But don't you have that slightest opportunity to even text me and at least say something? Unlike last time, when we just know each other, you never fail to text me even during your shortest break time. 

Oh well. Absence makes the heart grow fonder? I don't know for you but it does for me. 

Or maybe am I asking for too much. Its me that I have to blame. Sorry dear.

My health is deteriorating even more. September quickly come. I need a breather, really. 

With love, 

Syed Ridwan

P/S: I miss you

Water Sports

Swimming has never been my forte! How I wish that I can learn swimming when I was young. My mum forbids me to take up swimming lessons or to attend swimming classes organized by my school due to my history of asthma. 

I love watching people doing water sports. I got so excited watching them. For example, water polo, swimming competition during olympic games, kayaking, canoeing, and especially diving.

There's this show called "Dive!!" - a japanese show that I watched long time ago, and I started to like watching the way divers dive. Its pretty cool and challenging. 

I even googled on how the diving competition being judges and the points system. Its kinda interesting on how they average te points. And one of the judging criteria in diving is how smooth a diver enter the pool. 

They even have their own terms on what they are going to perform for the dive. For example, 2.5 (1) pike. This means 2 and a half turns, forward in a pike position. There are total of 6 groups 

(1) Forward

(2) Backwards

(3) Reverse

(4) Inwards

(5) Twist

(6) Armstand

Cool right? How I wish I can swim so i participate in these kind of water sports or activities. 😞

With love,

Syed Ridwan 

P/S: I love you.

Consultation

Oops. Seems like I've ditched you for a few days dear blog, its probably due to my hectic schedule and my deteriorating health. Been falling sick nowadays. 

I guess. I can only manage to vent my anger here without people knowing right? Fuck you doctor! Waste my bloody time! Really... Made me travel for your words which says "Sorry, but i don't seem to find any abnormalities." Fuck you! I'm suffering for 3 fucking days and I'm gonna suffer more don't you know! And you said no abnormalities! Fuck you doctor! Fuck you! Go throw your degree certificate away to the nearest reservoir so you have to fish it to get it. And what you gave me? A fucking paracetamol! I have my own panadol okay. Thank you very much! 

I'm sorry my dear blog.. I'll behave next time. 

With love,

Syed Ridwan

P/S: I miss you.

Esplanade

Esplanade - Theatres by the Bay

A place where arts activities take place. A place where you'll find many arts group performing and express their arts in many various forms be it dancing, singing, acting, playing in a band/orchestra, paintings, sculptures, and many more. People love to come here, be it watching performances, taking picture for its beautiful structure and scenery by the bay or just to relax and catch up with friends at the various bars or restaurants the mall has to offer. 

And as for me, I find Esplanade not just unique on its own but it itself as one of the several tourists attractions that one might love to come back and visit for its beauty.

I find peace at Esplanade. Sitting by the bay during the weekdays where there isn't much people to occupy the area, I can simply embrace the tranquility and use it for a quiet me-time.

There's this particular spot of mine that I always visit whenever I need my solitary moments. By the water I sat, I let the sound of the water clear my mind off things and let it relax. Amazingly, after 20 minutes or so, I feel much relaxed and calm.

Its amazing how a building can actually make you calm. I love Esplanade for what it has done and can do for me. 

 es·pla·nade n.

A flat open stretch of pavement or grass, especially one designed as a promenade along a shore.

With love,

Syed Ridwan

P/S: I love you.

Splitting Headache

Woke up with a bad splitting headache. Real bad that I almost fainted while walking to the kitchen. My vision was blurry to the point that I can't see my mum in front of me. Don't know what happen to me. 

I drank water. Ate noodles that my sister just cooked and quickly swallowed panadol to ease the pain. Laid on the couch for a moment and it slowly goes away. Now I'm drinking hot jasmine green tea while typing this. Hope it really gets better. 

I don't intend to tell you this. I don't want you to get worried unnecessarily. Thus, I share it with my blog - cause you don't have my blog link. Nyeheheh! Gonna let you find out yourself. Boooo! 

What is my agenda for today? Nothing I guess. Slack at home. Night practice later. That's all. 

With love,

Syed Ridwan

P/S: I miss you.

Concerts

30 August - Tribute to Kartina Dahari

31 August - Malay Culture Festival

01 September - The Great Britten 

The list of performance that I have from now till September at least. 

God. Give me strength to complete all this. I am getting tired as the days passed. 

Lack of sleep. Bad eating habits.

And all this makes me missing you even more. Let's meet up please.  Though for a super short whole. 

With love,

Syed Ridwan

P/S: I miss you.